But thanks be to God, who always leads us as captives in Christ's triumphal procession and uses us to spread the aroma of the knowledge of him everywhere (2 Cor. 2:14 NIV).
No doubt we will face obstacles as we go through this life on earth, “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world (John 16:33)” that’s a good time to rely on His promises. Overcomers!
I will admit during this journey, (especially when my hands were too weak to hold my bible, or unable to reach, or push the buttons on my pc to hear the word) my attitude wasn’t what it should have been. Yeah, most Christians would have been able to walk through what I've been through with flying colors, but it hasn't been that way for me. However at some point I did convinced myself to do something different. I recalled scripture I’d learn from my childhood days, to the ones I’d say with my girls for our scripture for each week, and all other means I’d hid the word of God in my heart. In fact I remember the second time around at Baptist Rehab I would pray scripture out loud, one nurse walked in on me late one night, she said another nurse passed my room and heard me, she thought I might be losing my mind. It was my routine every night, after the room grew dark, and quiet I fell asleep most nights after singing, and praying to our God, it was my routine and realize now it was faith that the positive activated attitude was restored (mindset which is essential) and continues to be my motivating force to face every day.
God has purposed a journey for each of us, we march forward relying on His promises that He goes before us, and will never leave us. I am studying the Sovereign God, and the struggle I am having is the same issue I’ve had from the beginning of this season in my life. I’d like to say that my faith is hands down what has bought us this far, since I am taking an honest approach let me also say I really don’t get it all… and I am learning through this study I don’t have to get it all I must just trust HIM! I read end of the story we are victorious.
I am excited about learning, and sharing new ways to defeat the enemy (not to give him credit) but he is on his job, he came at me with fear, and doubt. That fear, and doubt is no match to what the word says, and the enemy will flee when he is being body slammed with the word. I meant business, praying God’s word back to Him, I couldn’t go to sleep otherwise no wonder they thought I was losing my mind. Many nights I couldn't wait for them to make rounds so that I could start because I knew God would meet me there.
I deliberately use my energy and strength thinking on the things of God, infusing His word throughout my mind. Exercising my faith putting it another way. Do not conform to the pattern of this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God (Rom. 12:2).
I needed a change in my situation that came about when my attitude changed. I am marching forward, in the midst of present circumstances. Every now and again I check my attitude, the thrust from His word is necessary to keep on this journey.