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Monday, November 24, 2014


I'm feeling the presence of the Lord really strong.   Living the life He has given me has taken precedence (I'm busy) lately, I sing a song everyday somewhere everyday (ASAD ministry Psalm 104:33), and my other jobs whew ...  I am so grateful for all of my blessings and at times (right now), I am overwhelmed.  Don't get me wrong I have challenges that I face daily that could quickly knock me to my knees but the good continues outweighing the bad, so I forward march.  I've come to accept that everyday will not be a sun shinning day, but after the rain we enjoy those beautiful rainbows, I welcome the rainy days (I still don't care for the thunder ; ))     
I am hosting our families' Thanksgiving Traditional dinner for all those who would come, and stopped for a minuet to worship God for bringing me this far. I feel good today, my body feels so strong.  I am able most nights to get in my bed, and sleep like a normal person.  I'm functioning I do things a little bit different but I get them done.  I was able to get the groceries (it took 3 trips to the stores) but the Lord blessed me to do it.  I know none of the things I mention are major deals but try to do them when you are unable to think, and you are in a wheel chair with limited mobility. Hey trust me it is a major deal.  I had a few minuets in between washing "the good dishes" and wiping down the cabinets to come try to express how grateful I am for all the many blessings, HE has given me.  The best of the blessings include my relationship with God, my family, extended family, friends, and our health
Love, Peace, and Happiness to all of you.  Happy Thanksgiving
Saturday, September 20, 2014

"New Season New Day"

These are the appointed times of the LORD, holy convocations which you shall proclaim at the times appointed for them. Leviticus 23:4 KJV

I have been needing to blog, and have had so much to blog that I and overwhelmed.  This rollercoaster of life hasn't changed in the least, however I have been involved in what I believe is taking me from this season of life to the next. For most of my life, purpose has been determined by whatever is happening at that particular time.  Reflecting back as far as I can remember the motivating force for way too long was to please people.  Growing up, and even into early adulthood my parents relatives, friends, let me just say people in general.  I wanted to be whoever I needed to be "fit in".  During my time in the United States Army, being so far away from family was when I think the awareness of  "I'm ok" the way God created me came about.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. Psalm 139:14 KJV 

Even so seems like I wondered around life trying this and that, taking on other responsibilities that had nothing to do with me before arriving here. When I started the "Live Strong" program in my mind I was fulfilling the doctor's recommendation, though after reading the material I did not see how I fit in.  One thing I kept thinking to myself is at least I would have a little more time before going out on my own to develop a "new daily exercise program". After the first week I realized that the program was about more than developing a physical program, turns out to be the stepping stone for the next season of my life.
Timesia Hart

Everyone in the class noticed that I was the one with the most physical issues, and it is difficult to admit, but I was kind of irritated that I was put on display again (seems to be a part of the plan).  It took everything I had to get through the initial physical tests, and I had to leave my paperwork to finish after the class time.  When you are paralyzed from shoulders to feet everything is included my writing is just getting to a legible point (therapy really does pay off).  It was clear now why my trainer made me wait for the next class to began, even though it had just started.  This would be a total body transformation.

Timesia Hart's photo.
It is now as I am reflecting how God always has a plan and listening is crucial to be able to join Him where He is working.   For me it is there that I find purpose to continue with a happy heart.  My purpose has changed from time to time but the constant is God.  I've chased after things to keep up with what others were doing but that never really ended well for me.  I'm me and I am the only one created to do me. 
Neuromylitis Optica has physically, and mentally changed my life.... in a positive way

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28 NIV
 God gave me the ability to minister in song, NMO is the motivation, and people needing hope is the inspiration. I go back to wanting to make people happy but when I find myself there, I do an inventory to be sure that I am lining up with what the word of God teaches, regroup and move on.
Some exciting "New things are happening in my New Day".   There is no hiding I experienced some very dark times over the past three years and even before that, but it took all of that to get here.  No trials, test  ... no testimonies. We all have a purpose, a "job" to do I was distracted trying to do someone else's job, God's grace and mercy bought me to where I think HE can be glorified through my life.
Be encouraged to know that HE created you and threw the mold away.

"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I sat you apart; I appointed  you as a prophet to the nations". Jeremiah 1:5 NI,V                       

God leads, guides, because He created each of us specifically to do what only we can do.   Follow Him and by doing that I've found most people are satisfied, and it illuminates the "Mrs. Fix It" mentality for me. Doing me by God's design requires a lot of time and energy, leaving little to no time for much else.

BLESSED. We laugh at how many people ask me on a weekly basis to take a quick picture of them with their phones and have no idea what we do for a living. Usually I keep my mouth closed, take the picture and smile as they say thank you but when Timesia asked me to snap a picture of her on her iPhone this morning it came with a simple statement. "I want to document what I'm going through." It was just vague enough that I had to ask (not that she expected me to) and her response came with buckets of tears. "I'm beating cancer" she said as her eyes welled up. Within minutes we were hugging as she told me about the last year of her life. It's been only a few months since Timesia was paralyzed from the shoulders down at the rapid onset of something called Neuromylitis Optica. Not exactly cancer - arguably more dangerous, definitely less known. Regardless the chances of her asking a photographer who is this involved in cancer awareness is slight and yet in her mind none of this is coincidence. Through tears and lots of laughs Timesia made quick friends with Melissa talking about church, God, and most of all how focused she is on living as a picture of hope to people who are given very little. When the Mayo clinic sent her home, told her to get comfortable and come to terms that her life would likely be short and completely sedentary she refused to accept that this was God's plan. I'm at a complete loss leaving the gym this afternoon trying to explain the joy this sweet woman has for life. Beautiful, strong, passionate and stylish outside of the gym, focused and excited inside it she is absolutely a walking miracle. If you don't take the time to meet the stranger next to you today, you may never know the miracle they're living, or the blessing they can be to you. I can perfectly imagine what my day would have looked like if I had not met Timesia, but it has most certainly been better because I did. Check out her blog for more info on Neuromylitis Optica and her story at
Don't delay you can start today ..... it's a new season and a new day!!
Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Some old favorites

Wanted to go back on memory lane before really taking off with what my new normal looks like.  I will probably go back and  forth because I encourage myself when I look back on how far The Lord has bought me from. 
Some of these are hard to look at, because I remember what was happening when the picture was taken, and before I no it I'm there all over again.  A few of these were long before the diagnosis, and those can be difficult too because I remember when ... In order to stay focus I visit but do not allow myself to get too bogged down because I need every ounce of  energy to keep it moving forward.
Started a Live Strong physical fitness program last week, and am very excited.  I have many challenges my core is still weak, balance is not too good, and my walking is retarded because of the tone in my body.
Please check out the you tube, and leave a comment.
I'm making an effort to keep things current as best as I can.  Had a wonderful day today and am looking forward to the next day.
Glory to God great things HE hath done.

                                                            My Honey and I Nae's college graduation
NMO no where on the radar

Health South after second exacerbation                               Nae and I Sept 2011 

Home 2012 Tee and I
2012  Bday celebration

April 2012 me doing Rida's  hair

Moma and Kitty getting ready to celebrate

Dee and I Easter 2012

Christi Cox UAMS 2011

My Man and I bday celebration 2012

Dr. and Susan Byrum
                                                                    Joshua and Dee 

Sisters Me and Kitty bday celebration

Celebration April 2012

      My Mother one of a kind
       Mrs. Ethel A. Minniefield
                                            Sibling Love (L to R) Baby Girl Kitty
Baby Brother John, Me, Tunie
Rida in front

Branson Spring 2012

        Hair after chemo before Transplant

Christmas 2012Tee, Dee, Nae and Me

Chicago I am a Transplant Candidate

Soldier United States Army 1982 - 1993


Praise Team Church Christmas 2012 
Tee, Granny, Dee, Me, and                          
                             Nae Christmas 2012

 my niece Chaniza, and I Christmas 2012

Monday, July 7, 2014

End of old, start of New

2 Corinthians 4:16-18  So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our  inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is  preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we  look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the  things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are  eternal.

"Are you mourning over your own weakness? Take courage, for there must be a consciousness of weakness before the Lord will give thee  victory. Your emptiness is but the preparation for your being filled, and your  casting down is but the making ready for your lifting up.” – Charles  Spurgeon

Of late, I've wanted to blog more times than I can remember, I'm really trying to keep things in proper prospective. To be completely honest I get so overwhelmed about what this journey has been like many times, making it tough to blog.  As I type, I remember not long ago I was unable to type, write, or wash dishes due to the weakness in my hands and fingers.
I keep pressing on because I truly believe that through it all God will be glorified, the ones coming behind me diagnosed with this and other rare neurological diseases will benefit, if for nothing else that I never forget the power of prayer, and finally to encourage myself knowing that God has planned purpose for my life.
If I could remind myself of the last eight words of the above scripture the difficulty in my life would be greatly minimized. Though difficult to admit I have to completely turn this health issue over to God. It seems as if I'm doing fine and then all of a sudden reality hits reminding me of the things I so desire to do but am unable to do.  I feel such a void where dreams were so vivid before the exacerbations.  I realize that it is time to do away with those dreams and began new dreams.
 I start a new fitness program tomorrow and am very excited.  I've accepted the fact that there will be some things that I will be unable to do, but I will deliberately focus on the things I am able to do.  I'm looking forward to getting on with living.  This is the start of New.  My inner self is being renewed for eternity.

Glory to our great God great things He hath done.
Monday, May 19, 2014


A desire to glorify Him
 "He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love, having predestined us to  adoption as sons by Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the good pleasure of His will, to the praise of the glory of His grace, by which He made us accepted in the Beloved."      
Ephesians 1:4-6
 Of late life has been closer to our new normal.  I began most mornings getting up dressing in gym clothes making our protein drinks. I head out the door to drop Diana my daughter off to school.  If it is a Bible study I have my clothes to shower and change into after my exercise.  At my one year follow up appointment I was advised to do a livestrong program before going out on my own starting with Palates or Yoga program.  I've enrolled for that and am waiting for it to begin in the meantime I have a program designed by my therapist and one of the trainers at the gym.  The new emphasis is strengthening, and balance as I continue to progress. 

Being prior military I am disciplined as far as working out, however I get discouraged when I am unable to do what I was able to do before all of this happened to me.  I'd like to not even think about what I used to do and be thankful that I am able to get to the gym on my own.  I am able to do a full workout, shower, dress and go on with the errands of the day is enough, but honestly I long for the other stronger body.  I continue working hard as I can, with a happy heart that I may honor God but it is difficult.
I've began the cleaning process as you can imagine the main focus has been getting back on my feet and to just manage as best as we could.  Now that I have a lil more energy I am taking one room at a time, reorganizing things to function more efficiently.  It is amazing how much things can be accumulated in nine months.  I believe in being a good steward over all of God's blessings, I think this is a form of giving Him glory.
Some new advances to report my handwriting/typing is continuously improving, I'm excited because I enjoy writing notes and haven't done as much because my writing hasn't been legible.  Typing is good, and is a huge part of the work environment.  I'm able to slowly return to some of my social groups.  I am back to working my Mary Kay business which is going to provide resources to pay the continuous medical bills, while affording me the opportunity to provide expert professional skin care advise on the #1 brand of cosmetics.  I am a licensed cosmetologist, and enjoy people so combining the two really makes me feel like I'm making a difference in the lives of others.
Everything I am able to do is because of the faithfulness of God, I'm never going to make light of that. As I continue on this journey, even though sometimes I struggle to get one thing done.  I remind myself of the days I was only able to lay looking up at the ceiling or the right or left I instantly resort to an attitude of gratitude. 
My intention is to continue to bring glory to God, it is different but I am glad that He looks at our hearts, and not the outward appearance.  I am in constant contact with the insurance companies, an advocate for NMO, accepting speaking engagements to bring awareness to Neurological Diseases, and other opportunities as the come.
Friday, March 28, 2014

Chicago Post Tranplant Appointments

One Year Post Transplant Flu Appointment

Preparing for the follow up appointment this time seemingly was more daunting than the actual appointments.  I try and have most of the tests the transplant team requires done locally which eliminates at least one day of doctors poking and this and that while I’m there.  I am so thankful for the health care professionals here doing whatever it takes to get me what I need to bring.  As a matter of fact the MRI’s were completed in enough of time for me to mail in time for Dr. Burt to review before my appointment.  It is a blessing, to have a clear picture of how the lesions look and be able to discuss the next step with us at the follow up appointments. 

We left early Tuesday morning for Chicago for what we thought was going to be a long     grueling three days of “hurry up and wait”, or miles of walking from one Pavillion (that’s what each section/clinic is called at Northwestern Memorial) to the other, (and after a while they all start to look the same so you walk more than you have to b/c you are lost) but to my surprise quite the contrary. We went straight to the laboratory for labs, from the airport orders were in the system already, things were really going smooth.  I was so glad to see Gypsy the initial lab tech that did all the preliminary labs before the transplant you can imagine how relieved I was knowing she was going to draw my labs (she loves the Lord).   We (Joshua, Dee because it was Spring Break, and I) had enough of time to get lunch and sign in early for the first appointment, at the eye clinic.  Of course there was a bunch of paperwork to fill out (let me just do a shout out to the fingers … glory my writing is really good when you can read what I’ve written) took me a little while but I did it all before they called me in to see Dr. Melan.  He is the Ophthalmologist that took care of me after the transplant; however I did not see him at the six month follow up.  After the visual field, eye pressure check and dilation (dark eyes take forever to dilate) he said that I’ve lost more vision in my right eye (the eye that lost central vision during the first exacerbation) but as with NMO there is no explanation.  He said outside of the optic nerve damage the eye is healthy.  He also said that the vision is so bad I wouldn’t notice losing more vision in that eye unless isolated for testing.  My left eye on the other hand is stable and I am grateful to be able to see.  He recommended that I am followed by a local Ophthalmologist, and return in one year.  It was 6:00 we checked into the hotel (not the one we usually stay in) but it was fine to shower and sleep, and that is exactly what we needed after traveling and appointments.

Day two began with Dr. Balavanov the Neurologist of the team, his practice is not a part of Northwestern Memorial Hospital system, so we head across town to Rush University.  After another boat load of paperwork he called us in for the appointment.  Dr. Balavanov treats patients with MS and other Neurological diseases including NMO.  He was very impressed with the results so far.  He told me that his opinion is that I will continue to improve up to two years, the lesions will heal but to what extent the scars will have is unknown.  He did a very thorough examination including me doing some crazy moves which tickled Dee, we were all excited that I did them all without falling or holding on to anything.  He noticed right off that my balance was better and that I walk with confidence that I am not going to fall.  We discussed tone, and spasticity and how the two are the primary reason my walking isn’t better but I’m not discourage, rather remain hopeful.  He prescribed a new medication called “the walking pill” but wanted me to take it in the compounded form.  Insurance is still an issue until the positive numbers reach FDA regulation. As soon as the pharmacy in Chicago has it they will mail it to me.  In the meantime I’ve contacted a local pharmacy and they are able to make the prescription.  It was close to 2 p.m. so we had lunch and headed over to see the Transplant team. 

We signed in and of course more papers to fill out.  The nurse passed right by me but I didn’t know she was looking for me until she walked back and called my name.  I got up to follow her back she said she did not recognize me.   She did vital signs and then Dr. Burt came in.  He said he was amazed to see how well I looked.  He said he couldn’t be much happier (by the way he is a believer) with what is happening.  He read in his notes from August that he thought I looked well, but he did not know how much more I would improve, this exceeded what he expected because of the severity of the exacerbations.  Overall I looked so normal he said.  Hearing that was music to my ears, because I see the stares and all I want is to be “normal”.  After his examination he agreed with the other doctors that I should continue my journey.  The most important thing he said to me (as far as I’m concerned) is that (1) there is going to be permanent damage how much, and what will be the extent no one knows but we are not at that point now.  (2)I am no different from anyone else life gives no guarantees we have to trust the Giver of life and live until we die. (3) There are NO new lesions or evidence of new disease, and (4) the NMO titer test is negative and all of that is good news.  He talked to me about some other important factors (eat well, drink plenty of water, and to be sure to get enough of rest) that we all would benefit from if we did them, but that is another post I will share another time.

There you have it, Glory to God great things HE continues to do in my life!!
Friday, February 28, 2014

One Year post Transplant

Sitting for a few minutes looking back over this past year, completely consumed by the Faithfulness of God, I am so grateful.  From getting out of my bed in the morning until the moment I lay my head down on my pillow to sleep and everything in between happens only because of Him.  It is in Him I live, it’s in Him I move and have my being (Acts 17:28), and I am grateful.
I will admit that there have been and continue to be some hard days, but I try hard to focus on what He promised me and that is to never leave me alone or forsake me (Hebrews 13:5) for having that mindset  I am grateful.  The Lord has bought me from a MIGHTY long way and I  have the “I just can’t help but be grateful” attitude, and I make no excuse for it. 
I’ve been released recently from the therapy center to my home therapy on my own which is such a blessing.  I’ve tried out a couple of gym programs and will make a decision within a few days to continue strengthening, and building muscle that will help with balance.  I am grateful, that the therapist final words to me were “keep on trying difficult things because that is how you will be able to do the things you desire” to do.  I am grateful that some of the things I desire to do are also things that I enjoy doing.  I’m really looking forward to that.  I visited the local bike shop and test rode some bicycles, and will be back riding, as soon as the details are worked out for a new bike.
I’ve learned so much during this incredible experience.  My sister and I were reminiscing about how after the transplant we both just passed out Into a deep sleep, we had anticipated and had gone through so much to get to that point it exhausted us.  We were awaken by the night nurse who told us we both slept through the shift change which she said was unusual because most people are wake with numerous questions.  It was if we just fell in the arms of almighty God relying on Him to work through the transplant for complete restoration, no more concern.  We listened intently as the details were explained but I told Rida (my sister my) “that was way too much information given too quick to remember” she said, “you don’t have to remember that is why I’m here I’ll take care of everything” and that was music to my ears, that is exactly what I did.  The next 9 days were the worst of all but that is all behind us and I am grateful. It was during those critical days I learned the most about gratitude, and resonates loud and clear today.  So grateful that God gave us strength to pursue avenues to get to the transplant trial, there was no other options.  He gave us hope that forced us to keep on trying.  Just this week in Bible study I was reminded even though I don’t know what God is doing I am learning that “all things work for the good”…(Romans 8:28) including trials endured by this disease.  The Lord showed Himself strong through the transplant team, other doctors, nurses, support staff and even other patients. 

I learned that I was created to have His characteristics, so how I live, what I say, how I act are all ways to show gratitude when those things reflect Him.  Any opportunity I have to sing praises to God I will, (Psalm 147:7), with my whole self-every single part of me, because there were times I was unable to speak let alone sing but I tried.  I am going to express gratitude through my doing for others, serving whatever that looks like.  Psalm 150 mentions praising the Lord 13 times, overflowing from my heart is praise to my God, great things He has done.

I will be returning to Chicago for the one year follow up appointment required after transplant in a couple of weeks, and expect a good report.
My intentions continue to be to help raise awareness about Neuromylitis Optica (NMO), aka Devics Disease, help in the effort to find a cure, and to render aid to families directly affected by this disease, and for the many opportunities the Lord has afforded me in these endeavors I am grateful. 

Going forward I will finish old projects and begin working on the newer ones as the Lord directs. So thankful for the love and support each and every one of you have  shown me and my family.