End of old, start of New

2 Corinthians 4:16-18  So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our  inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is  preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we  look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the  things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are  eternal.

"Are you mourning over your own weakness? Take courage, for there must be a consciousness of weakness before the Lord will give thee  victory. Your emptiness is but the preparation for your being filled, and your  casting down is but the making ready for your lifting up.” – Charles  Spurgeon

Of late, I've wanted to blog more times than I can remember, I'm really trying to keep things in proper prospective. To be completely honest I get so overwhelmed about what this journey has been like many times, making it tough to blog.  As I type, I remember not long ago I was unable to type, write, or wash dishes due to the weakness in my hands and fingers.
I keep pressing on because I truly believe that through it all God will be glorified, the ones coming behind me diagnosed with this and other rare neurological diseases will benefit, if for nothing else that I never forget the power of prayer, and finally to encourage myself knowing that God has planned purpose for my life.
If I could remind myself of the last eight words of the above scripture the difficulty in my life would be greatly minimized. Though difficult to admit I have to completely turn this health issue over to God. It seems as if I'm doing fine and then all of a sudden reality hits reminding me of the things I so desire to do but am unable to do.  I feel such a void where dreams were so vivid before the exacerbations.  I realize that it is time to do away with those dreams and began new dreams.
 I start a new fitness program tomorrow and am very excited.  I've accepted the fact that there will be some things that I will be unable to do, but I will deliberately focus on the things I am able to do.  I'm looking forward to getting on with living.  This is the start of New.  My inner self is being renewed for eternity.

Glory to our great God great things He hath done.